mean girl

Well, yesterday was an entire waste! DID NOT DO ONE THING!!!! Got distracted. I swear, it's like adult ADD or ADHD or ASS or WHATEVER! I read on a local acquaintance's blog a post she had written the month before and it was about me. Now no, my name was not used, but I am not an idiot. It made me so upset and so sad. This woman used to be a good friend of mine and then she turned on me. She ignores me, belittles me when she got the chance. It made me so sad yesterday and just spiraled me into a depression. I'm not talking sucking my thumb and crying in the corner, but I didn't get anything in the house done. I am still a little sad today, but I am determined to change things around.

Buy new clothes?

It seems like yesterday that I was way, way, way behind on my laundry. I'm talking carpet is gone, clothes replaced it. So, it took me a couple of days, but it was finally done. But then BAM! It was back in full force! My daughter does not even have a hamper anymore. It's just clothes. A hamper overrun by clothes. A big mountain, bigger than my 20 month old. I just don't get it. It seems to accumulate so fast, faster than I can keep up. So again, I just have to start plugging away at it. Ethan's is now done. Andrew's is getting there, so is Morgan's. Ours is almost beyond repair. It's piles and piles all over our room and bathroom and closet. Earlier in the year, I had actually set myself up with a pretty good system. Every Monday was kids laundry day. Wednesday was Mommy & Daddy laundry day and Friday was sheets and towels. and this actually worked well for a few months. But then, I get distracted, life seems to get away from me and then BAM! It's a cluster f*&# again! Plan for today? Just keep plugging away at it. I have a load in the dryer drying, another in the washer, patiently waiting to be dried and about 50 million loads waiting in line behind that.

It get's so frustrating though. When we built this house, I made sure that the laundry room would be big enough so that I could have plenty of room for cabinets and a countertop. My theory was simple. Have a place to fold it, right after the clothes came out of the dryer and I would be all set! It seems like I have the right tools in place for organizing. It's just utilizing them to their full abilities. But, how can I train myself into this? Someone once told me that it takes 6 weeks of retraining yourself to get into a new habit. Ya know how long it takes to get back into your old habits? About 6 seconds! I was doing really well on laundry and then just fell out of the routine.

Soooo, after all this rambling. Goal for today is to get about 5 loads of laundry done. Now, to make it easier for myself, I need to clean off the counter in the laundry room of all the crap that is on it. always makes it easier when I have a clean counter to fold on. Now, whether I actually do it, who knows? Would it be easier to just get rid of the dirty and buy new clothes? It would be fun, it would be good for the economy...well, maybe not the Tracy economy...

dates, schmats

I forget things to do and dates if I don't write them down. I had actually gotten pretty good at keeping track of things. My mother one year for Christmas gave me a Mom's Plan-It calendar. it worked pretty well. The arrangement of the calendar made it easy to write down appointments and keep track of everything. I kept it by the phone in the kitchen and it was quite handy to jot things down that I needed to remember. Dr. appts, school functions, etc. This sort of became a ritual for a few years. I would get Mom's Plan-It from my mom for Xmas and I was all set! Last year she did not give it to me. I literally have been lost this past year. I bought a different one when I could not find it, but it was not as good. I could not focus as much without my MPI. I seemed lost. So let's call the whole thing off! Right?

Really? Almost a year?

How can this be? Have I been that much in denial of my lack of cleanliness that it has been almost a year since I blogged about my lack of cleanliness? Seriously? Yup, I'm a pretty sad woman.

I just sat here drinking half a bottle of good wine while watching a good movie. Julie/Julia. Ya know, about the chick that blogged for a whole year about going through Julia Child's Mastering the Art of French Cooking cookbook. Well talk about inspiration! Julie Powell's little blog turned into a book for her and then a movie! Just from her blog!! And she is, well, was, an average joette like me! Maybe I should hope for a book deal from blogging about what a slob I am...yeah, I don't think so. However, it did give me some good ideas. Some hope, on how to turn this unorganized, messy gal into a spotless lady! Well, maybe I am going a bit too far, but still. Listen as I ramble...

Maybe if I give myself a whole year to try and change my organizing/cleaning life and turn it around for the better, while blogging about it everyday-well maybe not everyday, maybe I can learn a few things about myself on the way and see what happens. Looking for a book deal turn movie deal with Nora Ephron making a screenplay on this year? Not so much. BUT, turning a page and making a consertive effort to changing these awful habits that I have lived with my whole life, nipping in the bud my children's already gross disorganized, messy ways, turning my slobby husband back into the clean, organized man he was before he met me and reverted to my world? You betcha!

It's 2:00am. time to sleep and dream of clean and all the ways to do it!

Winter Morning Majesty

It is actually quite a beautiful morning here in CNY! We got a few inches of snow last night and the wind has not blown snow off of all the trees, making them look like beautiful arches of white. The sun is out & makes the snow glitter in it's shine. This is what I love about winter. It's peaceful. Ethan and Andrew are up. Ethan is getting another tooth & is again up to his old teething tricks. High fever. Making for a very grumpy sweet little boy. Yesterday was awful! I could not put that baby down. Every time I did, he would start screaming! I did not get anything done yesterday.

New morning, new day, plenty of opportunity, if I can just grab a hold of it! We have to take down all the xmas decorations today. I am so tired of them all, I want my house back to normal again. We have nothing planned for the day, so I am hoping that I can bring the kids over to my parents house for a few hours at some point. Then, being kid free, Steve & I can together tackle some of this crap. Even if we could just get the 1st floor done & maybe get a couple loads of laundry in, that would be a huge help.

Steve has resorted to extortion with the laundry. I am SOOOOO excited over our plans to finish the basement. We are all ready to begin. Just need to go and order the wood & sheetrock to get started. HOWEVER, he has said he is not starting anything down there until I get all the laundry done. UGH!!!! Dirty little tactics he has!

So, I need to get my badongakonk on. This is a phrase a friend has been using quite a bit. Apparently, for those that do not listen to country music, it means I think getting your ass in gear! So, we will see if I can get this done today. At least something!

New Year, New Day...Old Me!

Well, happy 2009! After a wonderful NYE spent at home with my family & wonderful friends, we welcome in another new year. My "new beginning" srarted w/ going to bed around 3am. My wonderful hubby & friends who spent the night let me sleep till 10:15 & gave me a fantastic breakfast of eggs, pancakes, bacon & sausage! Another bonus to New Years Day is it is my birthday. Considered this a birthday treat. Until I blinked & all of a sudden it was 4:00! This is why I hate sleeping in. The day was gone. I don't even know how. All I know is this. My house was a disaster, my kitchen (which had actually been cleaned up by my good friend Amy the night before) was trashed again & I had not done a thing. One word, UGH!

I have been doing a bit of research lately on how to organize my home, my life, etc. Has great advice for others, but nothing that clicks for me. Something about getting boxes & putting in what you want in one, what you don't want in another, yada, yada, yada. I would be left with two boxes sitting on the floor of my kitchen filled with things that I will throw out one day but can't do it now. Another website did suggestions to do more time management. They suggest cutting down playdates, not going out much during the day & "scheduling" time with the kids. What? Yeah, not interested in that either. *Sigh*.

So, I am still stuck here, unorganized, frazzled, having the desire to "declutter" but no ideas or motivation to do it. I do wonder if maybe taking just one room a day, and completely cleaning & organizing, if that would work.Now, literally, doing ONE room a day, would take 12 days. Now, we have not even talked about closets. But, by the time I am done, will the other rooms have become disarrayed again? Yup, who am I kidding!

So, tomorrow, I will try to do a bit & hope that it does not get trashed again by the evening. Hopefully, get a couple loads of laundry done, maybe even put them away too! Good to have goals. Very good. Just take it one day at a time. Best I can do :)