Wake up call

The past two mornings I have set my alarm for 6:00. One hour before my kids wake up. It has done wonders! I read a website that suggested this and more. One thing it also said was to take a shower when you get up. No more excuses. When I turned off the alarm, I sat on my bed, looking longengly at my spot, wanting so badly to get back in that warm place, cover myself with the blankets and drift back into dreamland. But then I thought about Steve, who at that moment was somewhere in the cold, driving a truck or out in the snow, pulling pallets and boxes out of his truck. I thought of the wind whipping around him, the snow covering his head and how cold his hands must be, even with gloves on. I remembered that he had been up since 3am, all for his family, because this is what he must do. And I got up and got in the shower.

After I was dressed, makeup'ed and ready, I went downstairs. Made coffee, put the clean dishes away, watched the news and went online. When I got the kids up at 7, I was awake, refreshed, had some "me" time and was ready to go. Got lunches made, even made french toast for breakfast. The kids were happy, I was happy, it was almost inspirational! This morning was the same. It is 10:46am and I have already done the dishes AND...5 loads of laundry!!!!!!! AMAZING! Two more loads are in the washer and dryer and it's gonna keep going! Yes, of course, this admission does show just how far behind I was! But that is ok!

I am 34 now. I am an adult. And I truly love my life. My husband, my children, everything around me. I have not fully gotten back to being true to myself. There are things and people that intimidate me. How can I expect people to accept me for who I am when I am still trying to get there. The best part is this...I am TRYING. I am working hard every minute of every day to improve myself and accept what I can't or am not ready to change. It all just starts with putting my best foot forward when getting up in the morning.